So, since Hubby didn't get a birthday gift; we were interested to see how long it would take Pat to call since....as we all know, she is looking for a reaction from Hubby. She called on Easter Sunday. She left a message saying she just wanted to see how we were doing and wish us a Happy Easter. Hubby did not return the call. Mother's Day is coming up. You'll remember last year on Mother's Day, we spent quite a bit of money sending a nice Harry and David's gift basket. Hubby got her a card, at my insistance the other day and we will send it this week. Obviously, we are done with the whole gift giving thing since she is obviously no longer giving us gifts. Sounds petty but it's like why? Why should we continue to give when she is being so petty? Petty is as petty does, I guess. Hubby is still trying to decide if he will call her at all. I think he is concerned he might just blow up. I can't say as I blame him.

 

In other news, Hubby's oldest niece-and Cathy's only daughter graduates from High School in 2 weeks. Since we haven't received an announcement, we researched it on-line so we would know when to send her a card. Here's a question for you: Why not send us an announcement? Is it really necessary to exclude Hubby from this too? I mean, we probably wouldn't be able to attend but it would be nice to have the announcement as a keepsake. And just to have something from Cathy's daughter! Our only contact with her since she has been 16 is her thank you cards for our birthday and Christmas money. All of this time-Cathy's position is that she didn't want her daughter "emulating" our actions towards Pat. I wonder if she ever thought about what her daughter might end up "emulating" from Cathy's own actions?

 

Why must this family stuff be so difficult?

Until Later

Sophia

PS - THE JOB INTERVIEW I had on Friday must have gone well. They just called and want me to come in today to talk about the position and money! YAY! THANK GOD!

Well, I totally missed blogging in April. What a wild couple of months. I have been on several interviews, nothing solid so far on a job offer. Although I would be really surprised not to hear from the Auto Group I interviewed w/ on Friday. Protégé is there and recommended they call me for Inventory Manager. A position I have not done but know a lot about and would be really good at, never mind really enjoying! I  am a little concerned they may not offer enough money but that’s getting ahead of myself considering they haven’t even offered the position!

The house up north is in default and has been up for sale for two months. Not one looker and we have it priced $15K less than we owe, hoping for a short sale. What a freaking mess. The mortgage company WILL NOT work with me in any way. My credit is in the crapper and did I mention I didn’t qualify for Unemployment Benefits b/c in the interview; Billy lied? That was a classic move on his part I thought. I actually called him and told him “Good luck laying your head down and night because even though the Interviewer may not know you lied, I know you lied, you know you lied but most importantly; God knows you lied”. He was speechless and I hung up. I know, I know a bit childish on my part but hey-HE LIED!

 

I haven’t written Dad back. His letter wasn’t what I felt to be a reaching out letter but then again, he did write back so in his own way, he did reach out. He doesn’t seem to want to take responsibility for his part in really, really hurting me and us just not being terribly close. I will blog on that separately.

 

Mom moves at the end of the month. From what I can figure out, it seems to me that she is more running away from the problems she is having at work. She is a manager at the Condo complex where they live on the Beach. Therefore never leaving her job, which I will grant you could be tough. But it’s a pud job, good pay, good benefits and good hours. She is just very negative right now. I don’t know. She is in a bad place and has said some things to me recently that felt like she was trying to bring me down as opposed to supporting me. But then, she has been that way before in my life. I remember Dr. Phil saying once; “What you need from others, sometimes you have to provide yourself-it’s called being your own best friend.” Wise man.

 

It’s been really awesome staying home. We have planted tomatoes, peppers, basil, rosemary, dill and all types of flowers for the yard. Hubby transplanted bushes from the overgrown backyard to the front yard. I have been able to finish unpacking the house and make it really look like home. I have been able to re-bond with Mendy; which I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. I am really tan from hanging out poolside. That has been a God send. I have done a lot of soul searching. There are a lot of feelings still balled up inside me that I need to work on fixing in order to feel a sense of peace in my life. Seems peace in my life will come from peace within me- about me. I may see a counselor to help assist with some of the feelings of resentment and anger I am still feeling from things in the past. The Wellbutrin only goes so far, I think.

 

It’s a turning point in my life. I don’t know what the future holds. I have prayed a lot about it and I know God will guide me in the right direction. It’s an adventure and I am looking forward to it! This life is the life I make it to be.

 

Until next time-
Sophia